Love Dare

If any of you have read or kept up with my other/old blog, then maybe you've read about when I bought a few different devotionals. One of these devotionals was called The Love Dare. This devotional is a year long devotional for couples. Matthew & I had started it before all the craziness started, but obviously are not getting the opportunity to finish it together.

So today, as I was writing him a letter, I decided that I was going to do it from my end. I'm going to write in a journal every day (since the devotional is for every day) and when I see him, I will give the journal to him. I'm really excited for this because it not only helps me to channel my emotions for him, but it also sets aside a part of every day to just focus on what God is doing in our lives and sets aside time for me to pray for him every day.

My prayer life is something that has really always kind of struggled. I've never been comfortable praying out loud, and sometimes I even feel ridiculous praying silently. But it's something that I really want to work on, and I think that this will help me.

Today's devotional was called "Love is the business of men". I won't type out everything it says, and I won't put what I wrote to Matthew, since I consider that private, but there is something from it that I want to share with you. (Currently - Lily is trying to eat the pages of my book. It's actually kind of hilarious.) There's a line that says, "It [love] is at the core of manhood, transforming men to be strong and courageous."

This line really stuck out to me because I believe that this is true for me as well. Going into this adventure with Matthew is one of the hardest and scariest things I've ever done. As I've said in a previous post, saying goodbye and putting Matthew on the plane was the hardest thing ever. But my love for Matthew is making me strong and courageous. Love & God will be two of the biggest things that will get us through this (other than friends & family of course). I know that one of the reasons Matthew is doing this is because he loves me. And because I love him I will be strong and courageous for him.

I love my Airman First Class.